this will pass too...

this will pass too.. are the words that i read on a wall poster ,in 1999,dec. when my son,then aged eight had to be hospitalised for persistent fever.i'll never forget those twenty days of my life.my husband was posted around two thousand miles away at that time and it took at least one and a half day to get back,i had to take my son to hospital because he fell unconscious due to high fever and to me it appeared the only logical solution.i wish i had used some common sense and sprinkled some cold water to revive him,he would have been spared from endless bloodtests,injections and torture .after performing lumbar-puncture(twice) they ruled out brain-fever,(ha ha),then they ruled out typhiod,and malaria,then tuber-culosis-!after keeping him there for more than seven days they were still unable to diagnos anything hence no proper medication was started.the fever persisted and he got weaker and weaker each day,he would not let me out of his sight for a sec,and i was crumbling inside.he was hospitalised on eleventh of dec., and i remember it was on twenty fifth dec(christmas day)that i stepped out of the building for the first time since he was a bit better and agreed that i could go to my mother's place,(which was at a walking distance)for half an hour and bring him some soup and sandwitch.
the hospital is a christian missionary one.my father worked there for thirty years.we were brought up in its campus. so the place is very familiar and dear to me. coming out of the building,my first thought was----i saw the sky after such a long time,there is a church round the corner,and like every year it was budging with activity,every face was excited no one knew what i have been through,i walked the pavement..my heart filled with childhood memories and a little heavy with my presnt state of mind.
this was the first time in my life that i felt so much pain,grief ,fear andhelplessness.and the simple line..THIS WILL PASS TOO--worked magic.i got so much strength and hope that the words have stuck with me,they work in each situation-small or big.when i have a cold or fever i know it's only a matter of say forty-eight hours,when i have a fight with my husband i know tomorrow will be another day,when i 'm down and depressed i know this will pass too.
PS: My son was discharged from hopital on twenty-ninth december ,around five kilos lighter,our pockets were lighter by around thirty thousand rupees,the disease was not dignosed,they said it was simple viral fever!