favorite quotes

if you are lonely when you are alone, you are in bad company.
---by sartre
mind unfettered by rules could recreate the world.
--sartre
we can choose to abandon ourselves passively to the prevailing state of affairs,conform to status-quo-thus reducing ourselves to a mere object among objects or we can choose to transcend what is given,by projecting ourselves authentically towards a new horizon of possibility.
we are what we make of ourselves.
---sartre
i used to think like that,i still do, but as i'm under strong influence of my husband,i get a bit confused. being different leads to maladjustment.
mo(my husband) impresses upon me that being ordinary is perfectly normal. at least normal people donot suffer from depression or neurosism.it's good to follow the society's commands and live with your head held high.moreover you are happy. and happiness is what we all want. i'm glad he is there to keep my sanity intact, taking his word i'v tried to live like ordinary people and quite enjoyed it.still something in me keep revolting,i love to make my own rules and live life on my own terms,it's so suffocating to act like dumbs,having no free will.
it does not mean that i 'm toatally antisocial,i believe in truth, goodness and love for all.a person who follows these principles cannot be a threat to the society, but there are some very personal choices which should not be dictated by the society.a man without a personal viewpoint,and ideology cannot help society progress.

life...life...life.....

yesterday my husband brought home a load of files and decided to complete his report at home.it was a very hot day. temprature is already crossing forty,and by eight in morning you are drained.he did his work on the p.c. so i and my daughter were feeling like fish out of water.(we dont have our personal p.c.'s)it was a long and boring morning,the morning turned into afternoon and he was still at his work.there was'nt anything good showing on the tv-the day seemed endless.when he took a break for lunch, he suddenly said"it's a short life!".....i was taken back a bit,cos i have been thinking quite the opposite---life is so long and boring--day is so long and boring--morning-afternoon-evening-everything seem so long.
the thing saddened me a bit-this is the difference brtween me and him,he loves life-he loves his work-he is looking forward to the next day,he is so full of life and energy every morning that sometimes i feel i can't cope with it.cos i never greet my mornings,it's not that i do'nt do my work,i send my son to school at seven then my husband to his office at nine but something in me keep cursing the day,why do i have to face it,why does the night end-what do the mornings bring to me--i stubbornly resist the day-refusing to give in-i slump in the chair or the bed or couch ,whichever is nearest resisting action,these are my hours of daily depression,which last till say twelve or twelve thirty,but at that hour i get hold of myself, prepare myself to face another day and jump to my feet and drown myself in the mundane routine of clearing the mess,making beds,then make the lunch-yes making lunch i enjoy-my son can tell what i have cooked tha moment he enters the front door(at two thirty-thirty) and i love to watch him enjoy his meal and for that i'm happy to be alive-wow ....what great purpose to go on-yea but that is the only thing that keeps me going on-to see the smiles on the faces of my children-and i'm glad i have to go through the drudgery of daily routine, cos at least it pulls me o0ut of my daily bouts of depression.
so it's a short life for some and it's a long life for some...